It’s hard to know what to say any more. But we’ve shared our journey with you for the past four years, and so we wanted to make sure we share it with you now, even when we have no words left to say.
As I don’t really know what to say, how to say it, how to feel, how to express myself etc, I’ll just give you the facts.
After an entire summer of tests at the recurrent miscarriage clinic, at the begining of last month we were given the green light to try for another baby.
And so we did.
Amazingly quickly, we found ourselves clutching yet another positive pregnancy test. And another, and another. We took test, after test, after test. All with very clear, very pregnant lines.
But as always, neither of us allowed ourselves to believe it, in sheer fear that we would miscarry again.
As instructed, we immediately contacted the hospital to get booked in for the treatment, tests & scans they’d told us we’d recieve.
Our first appointment would have been tomorrow. But sadly, we wont make it.
We have had another miscarriage.
That’s 7 miscarriages now. 6 consecutively.
We searched for answers. There were none. And the result was the same.
We know that we have so much love and support from those of you who have been following our journey, whether from the start, or more recently, and for that we’re so very thankful.
It makes us feel less alone.
But for now, I have nothing left to say. Nothing left to share.
Recurrent miscarriage is devastating. Heartbreaking. Soul destroying.
But this evening I will go to sleep, with the woman I love in my arms, and my children sleeping soundly, and as always I will try and remember that we are the lucky ones. Because no matter what, we will always have each other.
Read about our 6th miscarriage here
Read about our 5th miscarriage here
Watch a video about our 4th miscarriage here
Read a post from Jen about miscarriage from her point of view here
Read about our 2nd miscarriage here
Read about our 1st miscarriage here
We’ve also created this resource for dads who have experienced miscarriage